Title: sex and the elderly teen.
Category: other
Blog Entry: we crave it. we want it. we always want more of it.
that's right, sex! the three letter word for every dirty thought or horny inhibition you've ever had.
it seems to be a major theme in my life right now. everyone i talk to has sex problems, not getting enough, getting to much, or freaking out about not wanting any. is there a word for too much sex even when you're not the one having it? if there is and no one has told me, i would've inserted it somewhere into this sentance in an attempt to describe my current situation.
sex has already ruined my life. if i were a girl it would the equivalent of being sixteen and knocked up by the local fry boy, its bad. sex complicates things. it feels great when you're having it but as soon as you're finished the complication fills the room. there is a set plan for before sex, you're both wanting the same thing and when the clothes hit the floor, all bets are off.
my problem is with the after-sex. where is the manual for this step? we are suddenly thrown into unfamiliar territory, for some, our gut reaction is to bolt. some stay and 'cuddle' especially if you're sleeping with someone you're in a relationship with ... it makes it a lot easier. we are taught in by our parents sex should be shared by two people who are in love, two people who are connecting on the most basic level. sadly, as usual our parents are ignored and television reigns control over us with its message of 'protect your sex' or the free sex movement.
take brad and i (it really sucks when your dead boyfriend has a frequently given name) we got really good at the whole sex thing, especially in the last few months and sleep over nights when everyone was away. no one prepared me for the whole after sex part of the relationship, its an odd feeling knowing someone has seen you naked or touched you in what polite society would deem 'extremely vulgar'. no one prepared me for the aching hurt when the person was gone. its an odd feeling. one i should remember more often.
whore'ism works but something you must make clear before starting anything. crystal sadly was right. sexual relationships never work, someone always ends up getting hurt. it's funny how much something can seem so appealing when someone else is having it and you're hearing about 'how she just can't keep her hands off me'.
i'm not really sure what we're suppose to do about it. we can try and find a way out of the hole we screwed ourselves into or we can accept its a hole we should start getting use too.
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